Sunday, December 27, 2009
7:36 PM
♥7:36PMalright... i've finally changed my status from "blog dead" to "active mode". dots. hmms... i feel so frustrated... so i've decided to just throw everything out of my mind here... so this is it... a guy got my namburr and started texting. and... just so... he likes me oradi... alright... denn ........... here comes e prob... i don wanna get into any bgr.. cos... firstly, i cant go out... and my parents wouldnt approve me on having BF.. secondly, i wanna concentrate on my studies... i guess im stil young for all this BFs and stuff... so yeah... and there he goes... "i'll wait for you... no matter hw long it takes... and bla bla bla". so at first i was touched abt everything he had done.. and he said he wouldnt mind if i cant go out. bud i realised sth... i stil had feelings for ym. so........ tings became more and more complicated.. and i had more 顾忌. bud i met him today... we talked. and i gave him a hug wen i left. wen i got hme, my heart tells me that i shldnt contact him anymore... he shld forget me.. so i text him... and i said it maybe the last tym he'll see me. plus i asked him to forget me. so the standard reaction i received was... "i wont forget you. maybe you still dont know me well.i can wait for a person very long.. and i've decided to wait for you.. its okay if we din mit.. bud just let me wait for you.." alright. and btw...i've confronted ym. and he said his cousin and sis had persuade him to go for me.. bud he was afraid to love again. so thats wat keeps me hanging.bud i do know that its impossible i'll get tgt with ym.. cos he's deeply in love with summ... GIRL.. who had rejected him for a 100 times.and now... he text me saying that he'll forget me bud asked me not to avoid him. bud its impossible to forget summ1 you like wen she's constantly texting you right? so idk wat to do nw... i feel so 无奈. its like.... thats practically no one to help me out. haiis.............. i hope there'll be summ1 out there who sees this... and give me some advice. tks.